Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – The Start of EMDR – Creating New Pathways to Calm

EMDR: Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing First, I am not going to spend a lot of time telling you specifically how EMDR works. My reasoning for this is that I can spend a lot of time trying to understand a process rather than letting the process happen. For me, this can be an avoidance tactic…

Borderline Personality Disorder – Practicing Non-Judgement & Finding Synthesis Between Opposites

Idea for Practicing Effectiveness – With Anger & Hostility Ideas for practicing effectiveness is a Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) mindfulness technique from DBT Skills Training Handouts and Worksheets, Second Edition, by Marsha M. Linehan. There is a step-by-step process outlined in the above mentioned worksheets that, as I applied it, truly helped me begin to observe…

Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – The Stigma & Non-Social Acceptance

The Stigma and Non-Social Acceptance of Complicated Mental Illness I first want to say that from my heart, I do not mean to diminish the life changing journey anyone has to face when diagnosed with a serious physical illness. Serious physical illnesses like cancer kills people. However, some people who get serious physical illness do…

Borderline Personality Disorder – Mindfulness & Releasing Repressed Grief

Breathing “Wise” In & “Mind” Out This is a Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) mindfulness technique from DBT Skills Training Handouts and Worksheets, Second Edition, by Marsha M. Linehan. There are so many ideas for practicing “Wise Mind” in the worksheets, I picked two to focus on for now. It is just as the title says…

Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Anger & Lettin’ Loose & How BPD Am I?

Processing Processing Processing I’ve been processing- thinking a lot about how BPD and HPD manifest in me. I realize just how much emotions and thoughts I have been keeping inside me. For a variety of reasons. Mainly, my level of emotional intensity does not match most people and conventional social environments. I was told (or…

Borderline Personality Disorder – Intentional Interventions & Ah-Ha Moments

Feeling the World Having BPD means I emotionally feel the world at a rate higher than the general population. To me, this is a super power and a curse. Before I was properly diagnosed, I did not know what was causing my over-the-top emotional reaction to the world. I felt cursed as I could not…

Borderline Personality Disorder – Emotions Borderline Style & Seeing Is Believing

Emotions – Borderline Style I have spent the last two decades scared to death that something hidden in my memory was the reason my body floods with fear when “triggered” by specific and not so identifiable situations. I could not understand or link the intense emotions to a PTSD symptom of feeling like I was…

Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – The World is Hard Work

Strong Opinions Lately, I’ve been finding the world hard work. There are so many strong opinions on so many issues, I feel like I am drowning in an ocean of opinions. This is wrong, opinion. This is right, opinion. Actually, my struggling with the world and it being hard work – isn’t new for me….

Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Scrambled Egg Thoughts & Soaring Eagles

Scrambled Egg Thoughts This week my therapeutic journey has been focusing on the authentic self and mindfulness. Authentic self is something I’ve been searching for, for as far back as I can remember. In my early twenties, I remember searching out ways to get to know who I am, and find where I fit into…

Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Today’s Ramble on Identity & Calm & CBD & THC

Clarity & Confusion It is Day 11 since my diagnosis. I don’t know how long I will keep track of how many days I’m into my diagnosis. For me, this feels like a way of tracking my processing. I am reading Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies by Charles H. Elliott & Laura L. Smith. This…