Feeling the World Having BPD means I emotionally feel the world at a rate higher than the general population. To me, this is a super power and a curse. Before I was properly diagnosed, I did not know what was causing my over-the-top emotional reaction to the world. I felt cursed as I could not…
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Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Scrambled Egg Thoughts & Soaring Eagles
Scrambled Egg Thoughts This week my therapeutic journey has been focusing on the authentic self and mindfulness. Authentic self is something I’ve been searching for, for as far back as I can remember. In my early twenties, I remember searching out ways to get to know who I am, and find where I fit into…
55 Rules For Love – Rule #20 – Communicate Openly and Honestly
How Do You Process and Handle Life? How do you and your partner process and handle life? My husband and I are very different. I tend to worry, am reactive and am very expressive. My husband lets life roll, for the most part stays calm, and keeps his thoughts to himself. When conflict arrises between…
Goodbye 2021 – Hello 2022
New Year’s Day Tradition Since 2015, when I married my husband and moved overseas to Qatar, I enjoyed a tradition of starting each New Year’s Day in a different country. I was able to start this tradition because Michael and I worked in education and during Christmas Break, we would travel. I’m allowing myself the…
Just For Today – I Will Not Worry
I Am Free I am starting my second month of living in solitude – alone – 4,562 km away from family and friends on the East Coast of Canada – while I’m here on the West Coast of Canada. I’ve another three, maybe four weeks ahead of me before my husband returns from his electrical…
Just For Today – I Will Not Worry
CBD & Mindfulness & Sitting With Anxiety With a history of PTSD, anxiety has riddled my entire adult life. I am currently and successfully using CBD, a derivative of marijuana called cannabidiol, to relax me enough to implement the many mindfulness, emotional regulation and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy skills in my anxiety management toolbox. I struggled…
Ten of My Favorite Feelings – Joyful Stephanie
Thank You Omobola I was nominated by Omobola, author of the blog Live life Live Fully, to write ten of my favorite feelings. Over the years, I’ve blogged extensively about my emotional journey through alcohol addiction and anxiety; first as a medium for exploring and gaining clarity of my own story, second in hopes that…
Anxiety & Cannabidiol (CBD) & Exercise
Living with Anxiety Over the years. I’ve blogged about my history of PTSD, levels of anxiety and how this interferes with all aspects of my life. I’ve had years of therapy, had the usual rounds of the long term prescribed meds for anxiety, came off them because they didn’t seem to be working, white knuckled…
Today is my 51st Birthday! Reflections of my First Year in the Second Half of my Life – What a Hell of a Ride!
51 It is just a number. To me, 51 represents the distance in this journey of my life. Reflections Emotions are messy. Regulating them is challenging at best. Sitting with uncomfortable emotions without reaction takes practice. Meditation truly gives inner peace, but Rome wasn’t built in a day and the same applies to my meditation…
Just For Today – I Will Do My Work Honestly
I Will Do My Work Honestly The Power of Meditation I’ve recently downloaded the app Calm, and have been listening to How to Meditate with Jeff Warren. Meditation to Improve Concentration Meditation isn’t new for me. I have attempted to practice it many times over the years. Today, I have decided to start again! This…