Borderline Personality Disorder – Practicing Non-Judgement & Finding Synthesis Between Opposites

Idea for Practicing Effectiveness – With Anger & Hostility Ideas for practicing effectiveness is a Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) mindfulness technique from DBT Skills Training Handouts and Worksheets, Second Edition, by Marsha M. Linehan. There is a step-by-step process outlined in the above mentioned worksheets that, as I applied it, truly helped me begin to observe…

Borderline Personality Disorder – Intentional Interventions & Ah-Ha Moments

Feeling the World Having BPD means I emotionally feel the world at a rate higher than the general population. To me, this is a super power and a curse. Before I was properly diagnosed, I did not know what was causing my over-the-top emotional reaction to the world. I felt cursed as I could not…

Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Scrambled Egg Thoughts & Soaring Eagles

Scrambled Egg Thoughts This week my therapeutic journey has been focusing on the authentic self and mindfulness. Authentic self is something I’ve been searching for, for as far back as I can remember. In my early twenties, I remember searching out ways to get to know who I am, and find where I fit into…

Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Today’s Ramble on Identity & Calm & CBD & THC

Clarity & Confusion It is Day 11 since my diagnosis. I don’t know how long I will keep track of how many days I’m into my diagnosis. For me, this feels like a way of tracking my processing. I am reading Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies by Charles H. Elliott & Laura L. Smith. This…

Personal Development – Living An Alcohol Free Life – Year One

February 17th, 2020 I stopped drinking alcohol. Reflections – Year One As I sit here, sipping my morning coffee, I think back over my first year of living alcohol free. There were many, many times I wanted to drink. Taking CBD for anxiety, helped reduce my cravings. Attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings during a particularly rough…

Just For Today – I Will Not Worry

CBD & Mindfulness & Sitting With Anxiety With a history of PTSD, anxiety has riddled my entire adult life. I am currently and successfully using CBD, a derivative of marijuana called cannabidiol, to relax me enough to implement the many mindfulness, emotional regulation and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy skills in my anxiety management toolbox. I struggled…

Just For Today – I Will Be Grateful For My Many Blessings

Tara Brach I’ve been listening to psychologist and Buddhist meditation teacher, Tara Brach’s Radical Self-Compassion series on Calm. Her words truly speak to me, especially the part of those who consistently try to improve on themselves because they feel they are deficient in some way – always trying to fix themselves to be better –…