Strong Opinions Lately, I’ve been finding the world hard work. There are so many strong opinions on so many issues, I feel like I am drowning in an ocean of opinions. This is wrong, opinion. This is right, opinion. Actually, my struggling with the world and it being hard work – isn’t new for me….
Tag: anxiety
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Today’s Ramble on Identity & Calm & CBD & THC
Clarity & Confusion It is Day 11 since my diagnosis. I don’t know how long I will keep track of how many days I’m into my diagnosis. For me, this feels like a way of tracking my processing. I am reading Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies by Charles H. Elliott & Laura L. Smith. This…
Borderline Personality Disorder – Introduction to Symptoms & Causes
Mixed Emotions and Foggy Brain I’m 6 days into my diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD). As of right now, it seems my therapist is focusing on BPD. I do not know very much about HPD, yet. I’ve the good fortune of a Monday snow day, turning the regular 2-day…
Phoenix Rising From A Restorative Circle
This tattoo was born out of freedom. Freedom manifested from having space. Space to hear my inner voice more clearly while spending 2 months (and continuing), in solitude on the West Coast of Canada, on Vancouver Island. We all carry pain. Healing from this pain takes the courage to step into it, give this pain…
Just For Today – I Will Not Worry
CBD & Mindfulness & Sitting With Anxiety With a history of PTSD, anxiety has riddled my entire adult life. I am currently and successfully using CBD, a derivative of marijuana called cannabidiol, to relax me enough to implement the many mindfulness, emotional regulation and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy skills in my anxiety management toolbox. I struggled…
Just For Today – I Will Be Grateful For My Many Blessings
Tara Brach I’ve been listening to psychologist and Buddhist meditation teacher, Tara Brach’s Radical Self-Compassion series on Calm. Her words truly speak to me, especially the part of those who consistently try to improve on themselves because they feel they are deficient in some way – always trying to fix themselves to be better –…
Anxiety & Cannabidiol (CBD) & Exercise
Living with Anxiety Over the years. I’ve blogged about my history of PTSD, levels of anxiety and how this interferes with all aspects of my life. I’ve had years of therapy, had the usual rounds of the long term prescribed meds for anxiety, came off them because they didn’t seem to be working, white knuckled…
Personal Development – Living Alcohol Free – Musings During Day 78
February 18, 2019 Is the day I stopped drinking alcohol. This isn’t a first for me. I’ve a history with struggles of alcohol addiction. Life is Good Life truly is better without alcohol. I feel healthier. I have more energy. My face isn’t puffy. My belly isn’t bloated. My heartburn is gone. My marriage is…
Today is my 51st Birthday! Reflections of my First Year in the Second Half of my Life – What a Hell of a Ride!
51 It is just a number. To me, 51 represents the distance in this journey of my life. Reflections Emotions are messy. Regulating them is challenging at best. Sitting with uncomfortable emotions without reaction takes practice. Meditation truly gives inner peace, but Rome wasn’t built in a day and the same applies to my meditation…
Half Marathon Training – Week 12 – Plantar Fasciitis Continues to Halt Running; Stress & Anxiety & The Body
26 Weeks to Half Marathon My goal is to run the Valley Harvest Half Marathon, on Sunday, October 11th, 2020 in Wolfville, Nova Scotia. 21.1km. Everything About This Week Was Out-of-Sorts This blog won’t follow my usual format of writing about my weekly exercise progress, getting to October and running the Valley Harvest Half Marathon. I…