Borderline Personality Disorder – Emotions Borderline Style & Seeing Is Believing

Emotions – Borderline Style I have spent the last two decades scared to death that something hidden in my memory was the reason my body floods with fear when “triggered” by specific and not so identifiable situations. I could not understand or link the intense emotions to a PTSD symptom of feeling like I was…

Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – The World is Hard Work

Strong Opinions Lately, I’ve been finding the world hard work. There are so many strong opinions on so many issues, I feel like I am drowning in an ocean of opinions. This is wrong, opinion. This is right, opinion. Actually, my struggling with the world and it being hard work – isn’t new for me….

Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Today’s Ramble on Identity & Calm & CBD & THC

Clarity & Confusion It is Day 11 since my diagnosis. I don’t know how long I will keep track of how many days I’m into my diagnosis. For me, this feels like a way of tracking my processing. I am reading Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies by Charles H. Elliott & Laura L. Smith. This…

Borderline Personality Disorder – Introduction to Symptoms & Causes

Mixed Emotions and Foggy Brain I’m 6 days into my diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD). As of right now, it seems my therapist is focusing on BPD. I do not know very much about HPD, yet. I’ve the good fortune of a Monday snow day, turning the regular 2-day…

Personal Development – Living An Alcohol Free Life – Year One

February 17th, 2020 I stopped drinking alcohol. Reflections – Year One As I sit here, sipping my morning coffee, I think back over my first year of living alcohol free. There were many, many times I wanted to drink. Taking CBD for anxiety, helped reduce my cravings. Attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings during a particularly rough…

14 Day COVID Quarantine in Nova Scotia, Canada

Airport Arrival Protocol I flew out of Victoria International Airport in British Columbia, with a short layover at the Toronto Pearson International Airport in Ontario, to arrive at my final destination of Nova Scotia and the Halifax Stanfield International Airport. All those arriving in Halifax had to fill out a COVID check-in document, and could…

Personal Development – Cutting the Ties That Bind – Saying Goodbye to Alcohol

There is a book, I haven’t read it but know of it, called Cutting the Ties That Bind by Phyllis Krystal. I bring this up because for decades, freeing ourselves of the false security, the shadow of dependency on another person, thing or condition is a common malady brought to therapists who help others let go…