Processing Processing Processing I’ve been processing- thinking a lot about how BPD and HPD manifest in me. I realize just how much emotions and thoughts I have been keeping inside me. For a variety of reasons. Mainly, my level of emotional intensity does not match most people and conventional social environments. I was told (or…
Borderline Personality Disorder – Intentional Interventions & Ah-Ha Moments
Feeling the World Having BPD means I emotionally feel the world at a rate higher than the general population. To me, this is a super power and a curse. Before I was properly diagnosed, I did not know what was causing my over-the-top emotional reaction to the world. I felt cursed as I could not…
Borderline Personality Disorder – Emotions Borderline Style & Seeing Is Believing
Emotions – Borderline Style I have spent the last two decades scared to death that something hidden in my memory was the reason my body floods with fear when “triggered” by specific and not so identifiable situations. I could not understand or link the intense emotions to a PTSD symptom of feeling like I was…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – The World is Hard Work
Strong Opinions Lately, I’ve been finding the world hard work. There are so many strong opinions on so many issues, I feel like I am drowning in an ocean of opinions. This is wrong, opinion. This is right, opinion. Actually, my struggling with the world and it being hard work – isn’t new for me….
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Scrambled Egg Thoughts & Soaring Eagles
Scrambled Egg Thoughts This week my therapeutic journey has been focusing on the authentic self and mindfulness. Authentic self is something I’ve been searching for, for as far back as I can remember. In my early twenties, I remember searching out ways to get to know who I am, and find where I fit into…
55 Rules For Love – Rule #55 – Never Gamble With What You Can’t Afford To Lose
Photo Credit – Pinterest Take Care of Each Other True, authentic, accepting love is so very rare, that when you find it, cherish and nurture it. It won’t be easy… love takes work because love is a verb – love is action that matches words. Love is stepping up to have the best interest of…
55 Rules For Love – Rule #54 – Give And Receive Without Measure
Photo Credit – makemebetter.net Mature Love This rule took some time for me to process. To give and receive without measure is a lofty aspiration, but I get it because it is a mature love. It is a deep understanding of how each of you give and receive in the relationship. How we give and…
55 Rules For Love – Rule #52 – Make Love, But Also F*ck (Regularly)
Oh Yeah! Photo Credit – Pinterest Feature Image – wallpapers13.com Let Go Photo Credit – kinky quotes.com Let Loose Photo Credit – Pinterest Wild and Strong Photo Credit – kinky quotes.com Howl at the Moon Photo Credit – minimalistquotes.com Don’t Be Afraid To Get Down and Dirty We can be prisoners to our thinking mind…
55 Rules For Love – Rule #52 – Discover What Turns You Both On And Explore It
Strong Foundation Sex is fun! It’s even funner when your relationship has a solid, mature foundation built on trust, transparency, respect and communication. This opens up the door for two consenting adults to be able to SAFELY discover and explore what turns each other on! There is an entire world out there of ways to…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Today’s Ramble on Identity & Calm & CBD & THC
Clarity & Confusion It is Day 11 since my diagnosis. I don’t know how long I will keep track of how many days I’m into my diagnosis. For me, this feels like a way of tracking my processing. I am reading Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies by Charles H. Elliott & Laura L. Smith. This…