I find myself thinking about the rooms of AA. Many years ago I spent some time there, enough to earn my five year sobriety medallion. What always amazed me was the social contrast of those sitting there with me and the similarity of our pain. I was a naive young woman from a religious, upper-middle…
Category: Thoughts and Feelings
Why Is It So Difficult To See My Own Value? Because This World of Opinions and Comparisons Overwhelm Me. A World of Too Much.
I just can’t seem to consistently feel good, feel worthy, feel value about myself. What I’m about to say isn’t anything new. I’ve heard what I’m about to say so many times in so many different ways, but I see now that is really has gotten into my psyche. Everyday when I open my eyes…
Managing Anxiety and the Mind of Choice
It’s an odd thing, that moment when I realised at any given time I can make a choice to keep me safe and avoid anxiety. I’m not talking safe to avoid anxiety as in deciding not to walk, alone, through a dangerous neighbourhood at 2:00am, safe. I talking about that inner feeling of safety because I’ve…
Managing Anxiety -The Space of No Mind
I’ve been managing anxiety, with bouts of depression, since my late teens. I’ve had many years of talk therapy, had good years and difficult years, been on and off the merry-go-round of medications; and am presently off of all medications with a decision to stay this way. This is not an ‘I advocate anti-medication stance’ statement. Medications helped me…
Thinking About Intelligence
I’ve taken an honest look at my thoughts, my self-talk. I’ve thought deeply about self-acceptance. Accepting who I am and all the personality traits, habits and quirks that make me, me. My next line of self-analyses has evolved into thinking about intelligence. This evolved naturally because I work at a school with an enhanced curriculum. My…
Letting Go of Ghosts While Stepping Fully Into Who I Authentically Am.
Remember that light bulb moment I blogged about when my brain short circuited in the kitchen telling me that my thinking and what I tell myself about myself, not a person, place or thing outside of myself will save me from sinking while trying to adapt to all the changes in my life of moving to the Middle East? Well…..since that…
What Does it Mean to Me to be Canadian?
I’ve blogged what it feels to be a part of the patriotic feel working at an American school. Today, while soaking in a hot bubble bath (one of my favourite thinking places!!) I started thinking American pride and patriotism that led me to think about what does it mean to me to be a Canadian? I have…
5 Months & the ABSOLUTE POWER of Self-Talk!
I’ve spent my entire adult life changing. Changing masks. Masks are those invisible people-pleasing behaviours that allowed me to try and always do the right thing to please others. The masks have the same purpose – to please/fit in/to be accepted and liked – and what mask I wear changes for the people I’m around so I can…
