The hardest part of the loss of a dream is actually feeling the loss. Going into it. Not too much to be lost in it, but to recognize the piece of my heart that I have to let go of. To actually dream of a possible future and then allow myself the vulnerability to sink…
Category: Thoughts and Feelings
Another Layer
Stigma & Shame For years I have struggled with mental health and alcohol addiction and the stigma and shame of both. I wonder how many people like myself stayed away from 12-Step rooms or tried the 12-Step way but just couldn’t admit to themselves they are alcoholic and started drinking again because of the stigma…
AM I: In a Panic Attack or Trauma Response or Dissociation or Menopause? How Do I Tell The Difference?
This is my question for the morning as I ponder a rough night last night. Is what I went through a panic attack? A trauma response? Dissociation? Or menopause? Or, all of the above? It is not my first time having these stressful episodes that make me feel like I am loosing my mind, that…
W.A.I.T.
Why Am I Talking There is lots of information on the internet explaining this acronym, with many spins on it. Communication is so important, and I’ve certainly learned that it is incredibly helpful to think about the motive behind my need to communicate. By asking myself what am I trying to say and why? And……
Goodbye 2021 – Hello 2022
New Year’s Day Tradition Since 2015, when I married my husband and moved overseas to Qatar, I enjoyed a tradition of starting each New Year’s Day in a different country. I was able to start this tradition because Michael and I worked in education and during Christmas Break, we would travel. I’m allowing myself the…
Trauma, Flashbacks and Dissociative Disorders
I want to write. I want to express. I have so much I want to say. I don’t know where to start. It has been a while. The heart is an interesting thing. Not the heart – the muscle that keeps me alive. The emotional heart. Maybe, more correctly, the emotional body – how much…
My 52nd Birthday – Reflections of a COVID Year
I Turned 50 in Kerala, India I Turned 51 in British Columbia, Canada I Turned 52 in Nova Scotia, Canada Reflections – This Past Year This past year has been steeped in the COVID pandemic. This is a year of wearing a mask, hand washing, hand sanitizing, social distancing, seeing family via Skype, as well…
Have You Seen Bob?
Update – April 30th, 2021 Bob went missing this past January 9th, 2021. His body was found yesterday, April 29th, 2021. He drowned in Falls Lake. He has been dead for many months based on the condition of his body. We took his body to the vet where he was scanned and the microchip number…
Happily Ever After – After Every Challenge!
Happily Ever After I believe in happily ever after. That is, happily ever after – after every challenge we face! Life is a constant stream of challenges. Therefore, we will always have a happy ending – once we’ve truly stepped into and walked through every challenge we face. That is why the happy ending of…
Inner Strength and Self-Preservation
It’s an interesting thing. Inner strength. Same with self-preservation. There are no great words of wisdom here today. Just thoughts. Lots of them. Today, I continue discovering who I really am. S, 🎄 Photo Credit – Pinterest