Just For Today – I Will Not Worry

5 Principles of Reiki

Just for today, I will not worry

Just for today, I will not be angry

Just for today, I will do my work honestly

Just for today, I will be kind to all living things

Just for today, I will be grateful for my many blessings

CBD & Mindfulness & Sitting With Anxiety

With a history of PTSD, anxiety has riddled my entire adult life. I am currently and successfully using CBD, a derivative of marijuana called cannabidiol, to relax me enough to implement the many mindfulness, emotional regulation and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy skills in my anxiety management toolbox. I struggled to implement these skills pre-CBD because the anxiety was so intense, I would become lost in it.

The greatest gift, the most empowering ability available to me now as a result of CBD is using mindfulness to be with and observe anxiety when it happens.

When I am triggered, the beauty of CBD, for me, is how my mind is quiet, relaxed enough to not go down the rabbit hole (mostly), lost in fear-based thoughts. Instead, I become acutely aware of anxiety’s physical manifestation; of how powerful anxiety clutches its claws into my chest.

I observe the anxiety in my chest – crushing in on me – feeling like I can’t breathe. I reflect back to the trigger. What started this? What is my body trying to protect me from? What is this anxiety trying to tell me? Also, I can recognize anxiety as an old friend, a noticing with a compassionate “Here we go,” sorta response and ride it out – without taking the anxiety personally.

Another noticing is how often anxiety hits me during the day. I am baffled as to how I lived like this for so long. I guess anxiety had become my normal: inherently fear-based and reactive with the struggle to hide it and manage it.

Ride the Waves

I’m learning to surf the waves of anxiety. This is a profound transformation for me. I’ve always been drawn to mindfulness, and now with the assistance of CBD – I can actually practice it. I’m not sitting on a pillow and meditating. Not yet! As mentioned above, I’m practicing non-judgmental noticing of an emotion, observing it and learning from it while riding it out. The sitting practice of meditation is when I go to bed and listen to Tamara Levitt’s 10 minute Daily Calm on Calm. Small steps… one day at a time.

CBD is part of my success story of managing anxiety.

However you are managing anxiety, just for today…when the waves hit, let us ride them out and surf successfully to shore!

S, 🏄🏼‍♀️

About me: Stephanie Wells

I’m a Reiki Master Teacher of Usui Shiki Ryoho – the Usui System of Natural Healing. I was attuned in Levels I, II & IIIA in Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada. During a 6 week stay in Mararikulam North, Kerala, India I was reattuned in Levels I, II, & IIIA as well as acquiring my Level IIIB Master Teacher attunement.

6 Comments Add yours

  1. Margie says:

    I am so glad for you Stephanie that CBD is helping you so much with your anxiety!
    It must feel like such a blessing!
    ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. CBD truly is a blessing for me Margie!!!! Enjoy your day!!!! HUGS!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

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  2. Angie says:

    I take medication morning for depression & anxiety, night for anxiety and night terrors.

    My experience has taught me that acknowledgment is the first step. Acceptance the second step. Then comes all the rest… the medication (or other options), cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), meditation, focus (mine is: be where my feet are), then any of the multitude of tools we we learn when we live with anxiety.

    What works for one, may not work for another, but there are so many paths & tools… anyone with anxiety can find a way through, if they can get through Step 1 & 2. ❤️❤️❤️

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    1. Well said Angie. ❤️ It is very true of how someone manages their anxiety is as unique as the person themselves. There will always be similarities in our management styles, but what works for one, like you said, will not work for another. It is such an individual path. ❤️ I agree, acknowledgement and acceptance are paramount to being able to manage anxiety, because without it, I believe we’re either fighting it or denying it or just trying to push through, wishing it away. It becomes a norm to suffer, when we don’t have to. When we acknowledge and accept, we lean into the anxiety, embrace it and ride the waves… ❤️❤️

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      1. Angie says:

        Truth. And then it PASSES… my favorite part!

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      2. MINE TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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