Just For Today – I Will Be Grateful For My Many Blessings

5 Principles of Reiki

Just for today, I will not worry

Just for today, I will not be angry

Just for today, I will do my work honestly

Just for today, I will be kind to all living things

Just for today, I will be grateful for my many blessings

Love the Struggle

Struggles, we all have them. Learning to love the struggle, well that is a bit of a challenge. Especially when I compare myself to other people who seem to have it all together!!

I sometimes wonder if other people perceive me as someone who likes to be in the victim role, because I share my struggles so openly, that I am looking for pity and attention.

Maybe I’m projecting my own feelings right there – because yes, my suffering and struggles with anxiety makes me feel like I am a victim. That I am powerless over my thoughts, because the struggle is real! By sharing my struggles, I feel as though I am going through my reality that is a path of healing. I don’t always have a positive outlook. Sometimes life is hard. Sometimes life sucks.

My struggles with alcohol seem more legit, than my struggles with anxiety. Because I seem to be creating my own stress by letting my punishing and worrisome self-talk get the best of me. But, with a history of PTSD, am I hardwired to worry? Maybe? But, electricians fix faulty wiring. My job is to be my own personal electrician and repair my worrisome wiring, to bring peace.

Of course, to live an alcohol free life, I need support. To manage anxiety, I need support. Scaffolding is paramount for any personal change.

Just ask Luke Skywalker! He had Yoda and Obi Wan Kenobi supporting him on his path of personal change!

I’ve my own Jedi Master scaffolding in place to support me along the way…

Now, all I have to do is the work…

My Struggle is Part of My Story

I am working on my control over alcohol. I am working on my control over my thoughts.

A lot of work this is!!!

Yes, Yoda, I’m doing, but it sure feels like I’m trying too!!

Just for today, am I grateful for the struggle?

Not really.

But, my struggle is part of my story.

S, ❤️

About me: Stephanie Wells

I’m a Reiki Master Teacher of Usui Shiki Ryoho – the Usui System of Natural Healing. I was attuned in Levels I, II & IIIA in Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada. During a 6 week stay in Mararikulam North, Kerala, India I was reattuned in Levels I, II, & IIIA as well as acquiring my Level IIIB Master Teacher attunement.

4 Comments Add yours

  1. Margie says:

    I love your honesty about your struggles, Stephanie.
    I don’t think there are many people that have it completely together as we are all a work in progress but I think that when we have found peace in our hearts, that is such a blessing!
    Thank you for being so real as your journey on!
    I hope today your struggles will be easier and your mind be less worrisome!

    Sending love.
    ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. Margie, your heartfelt blessings are received into my heart!!! ❤️❤️❤️ Today is a new day!! A fresh start… for peace!!! 🙏🏻⭐️🌟❤️❤️❤️

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