Today is the last day in the 6th month of my 50th year here on this earth.

In these 6 months I’ve:

• traveled to the countries of Georgia, Azerbaijan, India, Jordan, and Maldives
• repatriated back to Canada from the Middle East
• repatriated back to Canada without a home to move into
• bought a 5th wheel to live in
• bought property to build on – but can’t start building on it until the spring
• for the cold winter ahead, moved from the 5th wheel to a small cabin in the woods
• started back to work within the government run public education system after four years working at a private, international school.

My thoughts this morning are of energy level.

I tend to think of myself as a bit of a wild woman, with lots of energy and enthusiasm for life.

Yet, a shift is happening with my energy level. It is lower.

I feel slower.  A calmness has come over me.

Maybe this calm energy comes with being 50?

Possibly.

Maybe this calm energy is because I’m settling after so much transition?

Probably.

I like this calm, but it feels a bit unnatural.  Like I’ve lost a bit of myself.

But, I also know that the body, mind and spirit needs time to regenerate.  This manifests as lower energy.

And that is exactly where I think I’m at: I’m regenerating.

This winter, within the solitude of the cabin in the woods, I have a season to reflect, reenergize and build the foundation of a new life here in Canada. I have an entire blog series on Reiki and yoga to write.  I have an unfinished book I wrote, some 15 years ago, over 100,000 words of it –  that I want to revisit, revise, edit and complete.  There is a small ski hill ten minutes from the cabin – I want to ski this winter.  I want to start a Reiki practice in the nearby, small town of Windsor.  Starting in the spring, I have a dream home to build – so I’ve lots of design plans to create this secluded winter.

I’ve also time to make planned trips into the city to visit my parents and grandchildren. Within this calm space of regeneration, it feels like a nice place to reconnect with family after four years overseas.  Just moving everything forward with a slow and steady pace.  Nothing panicked, nothing pressured.  Just calm and relaxed.

Just for today, I will be kind to myself as I settle into this calmness within.  This quiet space to regenerate and grow into my newest self at the start of this new chapter of my life.

S, ❤️