Preamble In my blog Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Anger & Lettin’ Loose & How BPD Am I? I wonder how BPD I am and how I have looked out there in the world. I also write about how I let myself sink into BPD intense emotions – but at that time…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Anxious – Ambivalent (Preoccupied) Attachment Style
Jennifer May, PhD – Great DBT Resource on YouTube As I prepare for more focused Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) sessions with my therapist, I found a fantastic DBT resource on YouTube – Jennifer May, PhD. She has so many videos on DBT, as well as many other helpful videos such as attachment styles that I…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Owning The Chaos – It Has Made My Life Interesting
If I Could Go Back and Do It Over Again… Would I? I think everyone has either had this thought or been asked this question. Recently, while eating my morning snack in the staff room, a teacher suddenly asked me if I would go back and do my life over again… I started to answer,…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – In Need of A Reset
Anger From the Amber Heard & Johnny Depp Mudslinging Trial I can’t even really type this without filling with anger. All I know is that, according to the news, Johnny Depp hired a psychiatrist to determine her state of mind – it being she has Borderline Personality Disorder and Histrionic Personality Disorder. I’m sure his…
Histrionic Personality Disorder – This One’s Hard To Process – Gonna Be Baby Steps
Books About HPD Are Scarce Basically, there seems to be very few books published specifically about Histrionic Personality Disorder. Lots of Information on HPD Via DSM 5 When I Google DSM 5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5-TR)) and Histrionic Personality Disorder, there is more selection. According to Therapedia: Histrionic Personality Disorder is a DSM-5…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – The Pros and Cons of Medical THC & CBD
First Then Last – If You Struggle With Addiction Like I Do – Beware But, I will come to this. Open License to Find My Own Dosage I began taking medically prescribed CBD for anxiety. I had open license – at a significant financial cost as medically prescribed THC and CBD is not covered under…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – The Start of EMDR – Creating New Pathways to Calm
EMDR: Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing First, I am not going to spend a lot of time telling you specifically how EMDR works. My reasoning for this is that I can spend a lot of time trying to understand a process rather than letting the process happen. For me, this can be an avoidance tactic…
Borderline Personality Disorder – Practicing Non-Judgement & Finding Synthesis Between Opposites
Idea for Practicing Effectiveness – With Anger & Hostility Ideas for practicing effectiveness is a Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) mindfulness technique from DBT Skills Training Handouts and Worksheets, Second Edition, by Marsha M. Linehan. There is a step-by-step process outlined in the above mentioned worksheets that, as I applied it, truly helped me begin to observe…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – The Stigma & Non-Social Acceptance
The Stigma and Non-Social Acceptance of Complicated Mental Illness I first want to say that from my heart, I do not mean to diminish the life changing journey anyone has to face when diagnosed with a serious physical illness. Serious physical illnesses like cancer kills people. However, some people who get serious physical illness do…
Borderline Personality Disorder – Mindfulness & Releasing Repressed Grief
Breathing “Wise” In & “Mind” Out This is a Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) mindfulness technique from DBT Skills Training Handouts and Worksheets, Second Edition, by Marsha M. Linehan. There are so many ideas for practicing “Wise Mind” in the worksheets, I picked two to focus on for now. It is just as the title says…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Anger & Lettin’ Loose & How BPD Am I?
Processing Processing Processing I’ve been processing- thinking a lot about how BPD and HPD manifest in me. I realize just how much emotions and thoughts I have been keeping inside me. For a variety of reasons. Mainly, my level of emotional intensity does not match most people and conventional social environments. I was told (or…
Borderline Personality Disorder – Intentional Interventions & Ah-Ha Moments
Feeling the World Having BPD means I emotionally feel the world at a rate higher than the general population. To me, this is a super power and a curse. Before I was properly diagnosed, I did not know what was causing my over-the-top emotional reaction to the world. I felt cursed as I could not…
Borderline Personality Disorder – Emotions Borderline Style & Seeing Is Believing
Emotions – Borderline Style I have spent the last two decades scared to death that something hidden in my memory was the reason my body floods with fear when “triggered” by specific and not so identifiable situations. I could not understand or link the intense emotions to a PTSD symptom of feeling like I was…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – The World is Hard Work
Strong Opinions Lately, I’ve been finding the world hard work. There are so many strong opinions on so many issues, I feel like I am drowning in an ocean of opinions. This is wrong, opinion. This is right, opinion. Actually, my struggling with the world and it being hard work – isn’t new for me….
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Scrambled Egg Thoughts & Soaring Eagles
Scrambled Egg Thoughts This week my therapeutic journey has been focusing on the authentic self and mindfulness. Authentic self is something I’ve been searching for, for as far back as I can remember. In my early twenties, I remember searching out ways to get to know who I am, and find where I fit into…
Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder – Today’s Ramble on Identity & Calm & CBD & THC
Clarity & Confusion It is Day 11 since my diagnosis. I don’t know how long I will keep track of how many days I’m into my diagnosis. For me, this feels like a way of tracking my processing. I am reading Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies by Charles H. Elliott & Laura L. Smith. This…
Borderline Personality Disorder – Introduction to Symptoms & Causes
Mixed Emotions and Foggy Brain I’m 6 days into my diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD). As of right now, it seems my therapist is focusing on BPD. I do not know very much about HPD, yet. I’ve the good fortune of a Monday snow day, turning the regular 2-day…
Forget Everything I’ve Said – I’ve Borderline Personality Disorder & Histrionic Personality Disorder
The Beginning of a New Journey February 9th, 2022. Diagnosis day, again. Last diagnosis days were over 20 years ago. This included four different diagnosis by experts – four different opinions on why I was the way I was. I’m over 20 years of living with a brain I somehow knew wasn’t operating properly. As…